Found advice
Picked up a postcard in Whistler that said what I needed to hear.
Walked into a shop in Whistler and picked this up without thinking. Go where you feel the most alive. Simple line, hand drawn mountains, grey card stock. I did not buy it for someone else. I bought it for me. Sometimes a postcard in a gift shop says the thing you have been circling around in your head for months but could not put into words yourself.